Four years seems like yesterday and forever ago.
I am glad to have had you near me when I was too young to understand and now that I am too old to remember when I was too young to understand. But, I see the pictures and I see your face and you were always smiling. You were always proud.
There were several times, when I was far away and homesick, that you told me that I was where I needed to be. You never made me feel guilty about being away and always encouraged me to go even farther- if that was where I wanted to go. You did that with all of us. It is because of you and Mom that my idea of home is ever-expanding. And I love you for that.
I love that you never belittled me or made me feel ashamed of being a sensitive kid. I love that you'd hug me hello and goodbye. I love that you cried at sad movies. I love that you started every phone conversation with, "Hey, Guy!" And ended every phone conversation with, "I love you." I loved your laugh, Dad. With all that had happened to you, you were always still so ready to laugh.
It is so strange now that I feel you everywhere, but I cannot pull you down and see you. And I wish I could.
I cannot remember when it was that I last saw you. I know the time period. But, I can't remember the actual moment. I know it was in Ohio. And I know that we, at one point in the trip, went to that restaurant that you loved in Middlefield. I always forget the name of it. But, I know the feel of it. It feels like you. It feels like the last time that we ate there. And I don't know what we talked about. Simple things. But, we laughed. I know we did. We always laughed. And we hugged when we said goodbye and we said, "I love you."
And that is how I'll always remember you.
I know there is something more to being that I do not completely understand and I know you are now teaching me about it. And, though I cannot see you, I know you are always smiling. And, in all that I do not understand, I do know one thing. You have never been far away.
I love you, Dad. Thanks for all our time.
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